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The beginning of the day :




After school ends :




Beginning of the day :
Stanley , Ivan & Darian planning how to disturb me.
In the end , i took their unglam pictures.
Espically Darian !

After School :
Baby came to outside my school and fetch me <3
Mummy came to drive me home.
Went home to change and have lunch then
went to library to return books & then went to Baby's house.
Take my ciggarate then cab down to meet Hazell (:
Meet her at around 5pm meet until 7pm plus !
Then bused back to Baby house area to meet him.
Slack with him and Zafran until 10plus then bused home.

Currently waiting for my maid to make my Mayo Egg Sandwhich !
I'm hungry in the middle of the night,
Waiting for Baby to finish his game and call me(:

P.s I feel so warm and love when you hug and kiss

School

Heyo People, i'm currently in school now.
It's maths lesson and teacher brought us to the computer lab to do nothing.
I'm so bored , tried to log in msn but it kept signing in and never sign in.
So i decided to blog(:

In school , all the way is either paying attention to taecher teachings
or missing Joel Quah like crazy !
I'm feeling so lost without him around,
with him around i don't know how to react.
Everything seems so wrong with me, words can't describe.

Shall end here and update when im home later on at night,
& FINALLY ABLE TO LOG IN MSN !
Off to msning PEOPLE ! & listening to my ipod nano !

Apple Rocks

School is rather FUN today ! :D

Oh man , i'm so excited ! My mother just get me an Apple Ipod Nano purple in colour !
Exactly the same from the above picture !!
I'm so happy , i finally have my own IPOD NANO !
Then she got me new set of Keyboard and Mouse !
I LOVE MUMMY (:

I used about 2hours to get all my setup done with my IPOD !
I was really busy with it.
I needa to go bath now and study !

I think this time , i give up alot of you
in the inside.

Life God People

Love life , Love God , Love people !
That's what i live according to every single day of my life.
Hahaha , i'm happy with people already.
Comfort by God.
I value life , i value people i value character.
Everyday i ask myself what i life upon ?
That's all the answer i get.

I think living life , you don't have to be there to get upset with things all the time.
Time can heal , He can heal everything.
Hurts is just another thing in life , that changes each personal human enviroment.
Their believe when they got hurt change.
But for me , i don't care what hurts.
I live life to love & i live with values.
That's me :)
I got nothing to hide, i'm a Christian and i love God alot.
I know i have bad habits, i'm going to kick it.
Because i finally learn to value what i value.

I don't need people that don't open their hearts to love me.
Because , when i open it and it was force to open by itself.
I hate it when people treated my unfairly with the attidute i treat them.
I'm not a fool , you can hide behind your stories.
I tell myself , i'll be doubly okay with the.... of yours .
Life's is a bitch , don't become one.
When you don't become one and live well with Him.
Life is as beautiful as bright as rainbows.

I think i'm really as blur as a sotong, can you imagine bringing all your maths
book and homework , without bringing culculator ?!
End up , doing nothing with it but carrying it around as heavy as stones? -.-
Hahah , I DID IT.
In the afternoon i studied for 3 hours in revising of maths.
Then just now i used 2 hours to finish 42 maths questions.
Which mean i still got 58 more maths questions to complete !!
I'm only left with 1 day , i believe i can do it !!!! :D
Whenever i think that school is going to reopen , i feel like fainting ):
Nevermind , i shall study hard !

On the phone with baby now , i was blogshopping before i blogged.
But at least i finish my 42 questions first then blogshopping !
Okay , i'm going to checkout facebook for like 10 minutes.
Go and smoke or something and going to die on my bedddd (:
The picture above is I and Baby , but is overdued!

I love you JoelQuahMinLiang,

- I saw everything you wrote in your blog,
all the best for you friend,

I'm so bored , i just finish editing my blog colours (:
Haha , Baby haven't wake up yet ):
I think i surf the net too long already , time to go and study.
Wait for baby wake up then go his house , loves.

Joel's

Was with Baby and Zafran at Junction 8, then went to Cafe Cartel
to find my Mummy , Baby brother (: & my maid.
Eat dinner there with them.
Hahaha, nothing much after that !
Went back to look for baby they all only (:

I realise baby , i love you so much
So much that i'm so blinded in you , it seems like no one can replace you.
You gave me warm hugs , making me feel so save in you.
Your loves overwhelms me each time we have a closer.

But it irks me whenever we quarrel.

Went out at 5.30am today , cab to find baby.
Reached home at around 11.30pm

I needa a bang haircut ! :D

P.s , now that you decided to give up , i'm happy for you.
good not to hang on any longer , live your life well.
we may not talk after this , but i still wish everything's good for you ,
takecare,

Ohmymama,

Updated./

THIS AIN'T GOOD AT ALL !
I waited baby to end his show for 2 hours !
Finally ended , he was smsing me half way 10minutes ago !
And he didn't reply already , i called and his phone disconnected.
Which means.... HIS PHONE BATTERY FLAT ! ): ): ): ): ): ):
GONNA MISS BABY EVEN MOREMOREMOREMORE AGAIN ! ): ): ):

Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel !
Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel !

What can i do ?
But to wait for him to reach home ?....

It's okay , i love you too much ! :D

Nothing can replace you i suddenly realise , I fall for you deeper and deeper..
But boy , do you love me as much as i love you ?
Or boy , am i your only love in your heart or there's somebody else ?
These questions keep tugging at my heart always always..

I'm feeling so bored right now.
I wanna study but don't feel like studying at all.
I don't know what to do , baby(: is watching Transformer at Amk Cathay now.
Cannot sms with him, ):
He will only finish the movie like 2.25am !
2 hours to go man !

I think i should go study now !
Bye lovelies,

I miss Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel
Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel Joel !

I need you loving hands to come and pick me up , baby. ♥

Fairytales

Mood : Unexplanable joy
Song : Love to be loved by you - Marc Terenzi

The best sentence for today , for tomorrow , for eternity.

* When the moon is visible , the night is reaching midnight.
When you were about to leave me eternally..
& You were lying down on my thigh.

*With tears trickling down,
I ask ' Boy , even though we ain't together anymore but
could you still come and look for me after school ? '
You said , ' Yes'
Again I say ' Request for one more thing can I ?
Can i hug you once everytime i saw you outside school ? '
You said ' Yes , even more then once'
( I was momentarily shock )
Then i said ' HUH ? '
He said ' I'm always going to be here , not going anywhere anymore.
Silly girl stop crying , i'm not leaving you.'
Followed by a kiss.

I don't know how to tell you that i love you more than life.
Yes Baby , is you Joel.
I love you so much so much..
& i love to be loved by you, ♥

Lovelove,

Around evening , Claudia lovelove suddenly call me ask me go down Fareast with her.
Went down with her , buy her clothes , shop around.
Have dinner at Mogu-mogu , not nice at all please.
Called Baby at around 8.50pm , he at Cine so went over to find him.
Met him awhile , 15minutes or less than that (:
Nevermind , i also happy already .
Then he went to watch movie with friends.
Manage to hug and kiss him {:
Went off to shop around at Cine with Lovelove , then went to an acceries shop.
Bought 4pairs of earing for $3.80
Bus back to Yishun with lovelove to look for my mum.
Then off home sweet home !

I love my boyfriend ,no matter what.
i love your hugs and kisses , because everytime it felt so warm with your
arms around my waist , your kiss felt so sweet.
Each and everytime we touch , keeps my heart stills.
I promise , after a long tiring day , is so great to be embrace by you deep
telling me ' baby , i miss you'
Love,

Losing end,

I don't like nightmares , every single morning i wake up.
You started to crawl into my mind , when i closes my eyes .
All i see is you but is all negatives stuff.
It's making me break down , i don't know what to do .
No matter how strong i stand in my own , i don't know how to deal with every morning.
I can't go on like this , don't crawl on my mind anymore.
Please , please..
It's driving me insane.

Even though many images didn't happen in real life , but what's making me break down.
Is that it feels like thouse images will come alive one day.
I love you , i love you , when will you understand ?

Updated./

HOHO ! I realise something ,
people always ponders over negatives. But something just hit me,
NO IM NO LONGER GOING TO FEEL HURT.
What for ? Waste my time only
Live to be DIFFERENT !
Don't be typicals , always pondering over things that makes yourself upset !
No use , think about it.
Ain't i right ? :D

Thanks to those buddies talking to me about this ! (:
Yeah , 1 you 2 you 3 you & 4 you !
I love all 4 of you !
Z , A , H , G

Withlove, (:

Breather

I went home early , but im only able to use computer like 30minutes ago !
Because my dad's using it , haha.
I was busy watching some Million star singing competition thingy ! :D

By the way , i'm not going to use friendster often.
Somethings i see already , i seriously get very angry and i don't wish to get myself hurt (:
Yup , will be using friendster and twitter !
Why use twitter ?
To keep track of what Pastors is doing and Leaders ! :D

I need a little breather, im so tired.
Everything is crashing me , but im standing still.
Everytime everytime , it's cutting me deeper.

' i don't believe , you build me up and throw me like an old abandon house.'

Updated./

AWW , I read Pastor How and Pastor Lia twitter !
Everything ! :D
Oh my mama , Pastors so cool !
I'm missing Pastors like mad ):
CAN'T WAIT FOR PASTORS TO COME BACK NEXT WEEKEND!
I love PASTORS alotalot.

Love.

Yes ! It's Colin Chia !
I love my Leader & Effects head !


Service with Pastor Troy Marshall is so powerful.
I learn alot through is powerful sermon.
Worship was cool with the song ' The Stand'
Yes , i have fun hanging out with my Brothers & Sisters.
Of course , with my leaders !
Yeah ! I saw Jianfan and Yongsing too :D
Have a great time talking to them about life !
Talk soon man !

Over here.
I would like to say , Thanks Colin !
You're so great , you teach me alot in spritually and in life.
You taught me effects and the heart of doing effect.
You're such a great and loving leader to me.
Thanks for doing all this in my life !
& YES ! We're going to grow in God together and as a Ministry.
I love you Leader , Pastor How & Pastor Lia & ultimately God :D

I miss Pastors ): It's okay , i shall find them in Twitter !
& Shall see them next weeeek !

Oh yeah , i needa visit a doctor , i'm coughing my lungs out.

'i'll stand with arms high and heart abandon
in awe of the one who give it out ,
So i'll stand my soul Lord to You surrender all '

I live life to my fullest now.
Nobody can stop me from my conviction of going to Church.
This world can NEVER win my heart.
HoHo.

Combine service , 5pm-7pm
with Pastor Troy Marshall !
Life changing experience ! Be there!

Roadmaps & Revelation

Proudly presents,D1 !
-> Wanting , Cherie , Nicholas , Alvin, Abigail , Benjamin,Walter , Me , Denise.

First thing i wanna talk about today.
I realise my Mum bought a real cool toothpaste ! It's lime and lemon flavour !
Okay, i'm being random but seriously the toothpaste taste real nice.

2nd thing, Heart of God Church is a real home.
As i went back , i saw so many faces i miss so much.
Ryan New the receptionist , Ivan my leader , Colin my great leader !
Vick , Kaye , Benjamins all my good buddies.
It just hit me and wake me up.

I'm feeling so happy and peaceful in the inside when i saw them ! :D
By the way...
Zone D1 People are so cool man !
Look at me in that picture , hoho :D
Service was so powerful but i needa leave halfway to meet some friends.
Yup , don't worry i'm coming back.
People there are so cool to be honest , so real always full of love.
No such things as you dislike this person or that.
Seeing them , they never fails to make me smile and laugh from my heart.
I went in crying , come out smiling (:

3rd thing,
I don't find a point why must i feel so upset,
I still needa carry on and move on in life , i don't see anything in the future.
So for what must i be upset for ?
Only in Him , where future are clear like glistering water.

JESLIN! is time to wake up and stop getting upset !
YOU CAN DO IT ! YOU CAN DO IT !
MOVE ON MAN. Read books , worship , fellowship & many more to go.
DECISION I MAKE , OH MAN LIFE'S GONNA BE EXCITING !

John 8.32
' you shall know the truth and the truth shall set You free'

Life's changing lyrics,
Parachute band , Precious Jesus
: You came to me , with open arms paid the price.
In troubled times , i'll see the light.
When i'm lost , when i'm lost ,
You're the path , lead me on.
In You i see , all that i can be.

Screwed

I screwed up everything with my boy.
I'm so tired to even feel anything, im feeling real normal.
Nevermind , i'm okay.
Some parts of a song lyrics , i think is great .

A thousand times I fall still Your mercy remains.
The art of losing myself in bringing You praise.
You above all else , my purpose remains.
Everlasting , Your light will shine when all else fades.
Never ending , Your glory goes beyond all fame.
My heart and my soul i give You control,
Consume me from the inside out,
Let justice and praise become my embrace.
To love You from the inside out.

I'm a lousy girlfriend, what more to say when i saw all this ?

Gone

All the plans are gone, wth ._.
Forget it , i'm fine with anything !
No more Plaza Sing with boyf. forget it , i'm going alone !
I'm so freaking bored now , doing nothing ):
Who can tell me why everything turns out like that ?
Apathetic-ness ain't cool at all .

I got a photo with my Baby Brother ♥


I think many of you didn't know i have a baby brother ? (:
He's only 2 and a half year old , going 3 this year (:
So cute isn't it ? HoHo.

I'm going library & coffee bean soon , alone.

The end
- I can't move on with you around,holding you till our time is up.
I see my vision burn , i feel my memories fade with time.
Too many people to ache over,
♥

!st Month !

Happy 1 month anniversary with Baby [L]
♥

People i'm back from chalet ! :D
So fun with baby around oh.
This chalet is reallly great , but we didn't take pictures. ):

Currently , im doing nothing but smsing with Baby ♥
Going Plaza Sing with baby tomorrow !
So happy and excited yeah.

The end

Jeslin completed the quiz "Awesome, Non-n00b "What Pokemon Are You?" Quiz" with the result Volbeat.

Type: Bug You are a genius. All else falls to the wayside when it comes to your studies. Mind is most important to you and learning as much as you can and reading as many books as possible is your path to happiness in life. You may not have the best social skills but it doesn't matter because you know the capital of Nebraska and how many casualties there were in the War of 1812. You are going to make a lot of money and have a very comfortable life but you will still hold grudges about being picked on in Middle School and that's what explains the fact that you are a recluse. You have more faith in books than in your fellow man, you've been hurt and you lack trust in many things... you can't think your way out of everything but damn it you'll try! Read on!.

Omg , is so damn damn damn true ! :D

I won't be posting for 3days i guess.
I'll be in chalet (:
My boyf. and clique and i open !

I love Joel Quah Min Liang to the very max,
He's my sweetest baby. Loveyou.
Is so good seeing you 24/7 for 2 days.

HoHo, I don't really know what to blog about.
Just super duper boring , don't know what to do .
I got a few things keep having a war in my mind.
1. This world is so fucking unfair
2. Should i just stop fucking hanging on
3. No No , im just upset and i needed a break
somehow.
That's life !!

withlove,

Unappreciated.

I'm being neglected.

How i wish , you'll be holding me tight whenever i breakdown.
I remember , i have a friend...

This friend will hug me when i cry , kiss me when i go crazy..

Be there for me when im down.

Talk to me when i can't get thing right myself.

Accompany me when i want to pon school.

Always with me, & cared for me.

Now , where're you ?

I never pen down my love story like how i used to do.
So what if i love you so much , it still doens't make a different , baby.

Helllllo people , i decided to blog early since i got nothing to do !
I have been reading this book call the Broken Chords . It's rather interesting !

I realised , love isn't just a one person giving in then it'll work out.
The person that kept giving in will get worn out and tired one day too.
One day the person will burst and give up .
Slowly , love turns into nothing .
Nevermind , i'm just crapping my day along.
Nothing to do and i forgoteen my livejournal account password !
Oh my mama ):

OH YEAH PEOPLE , I can't go for the 15th june clubbing yeah !
So sorry , don't keep asking me yeah (:

Stick up stick up stick up, touch the ceiling baby ~ (:

Went Yishun library today (:
Meetup with Auntie !!!!

Saw Weikiong at Northpoint , Shiying was there too !! <3

Borrow 3 books !

Went to blk 604 meet Karwei , took lots of pictures.

But lazy to upload yeah , :/

MEET UP WITH BABYYYYYYYYYYYY ! ! ! !

I miss JOEL QUAH SO MUCH ! :D
FINALLY CAN SEE HIM AFTER 3DAYS HE'S OVERSEAS !

I bought baby a Ciggarate box (:

The first thing i saw baby , is to hug him tight and say i miss you so much .

Bused home after 45minutes with him.

I'm missing baby now.

Joel Quah , i miss you alot alot and i love you to the very max.

I don't know how to put in actions but i'll try my best ?

Dancing is my life , Clubbing/Claudia is my wife , Joel is my love !
If Nothing went wrong , my love for you always stays.

Unexplainable.

Why must all this happen ?
Why am i feeling so down ?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THE FUCK IM THINKING.

EVERYTHING'S WRONG WITH MY BRIAN!

High

Went clubbing with Claudia (:
last night yeah.

She brought , Joeson & Kimleng alonggggg , then went there.

Saw so many people , hahahaha !
Have fun dacing at St. James manzxzxzx.

Stayover at my Grandma house at Yishun (:

Reached there at around 4.30am (:

Met up with Weikiong , then he went to meet Yvonne (:

Saw alot of people.

HAhahahha , all the old familiars faces.

Clubbing pictures will be uploaded soon yo !

Baby is coming back to Singapore tomorrow !! {:

I dance my sorrows away, that's nobody bloddy hell business

Thank you Hazell , for sending me offline care messages (:

& Weiting (:

Walls of Misses,

Hello Humanity (:
I'm missing my baby Joel Quah Min Liang !!

He went to malaysia early morning at around 6am , ):
Will only be back to Singapore at 9June , Tuesday.

Not sure what time .... i don't care , i miss baby alot alot alot ! ):

Will be spending time with friends today , (:

No matter what , i hate you because you're a bitch.

Even though he called you baby , you don't have to call him baby too.

who the fuck you think you are to him now ?

Just an ex girlfriend , im his girlfriend.

Fuck , i shouldn't be nice to you at all.

Let's blog in point form !

1. Meetup with Claudia {: to fareast to buy her Clubbing top.

2. Xiao Kit went to find us at 7pm
3. Trained back to Bishan to buy Cig.

4. Went to arcade.

5.Meetup with baby.

6. Ruihong , Benny , Zanfran & someone i don't know the name was there.

7. Ruihong talks all day , making everyone burst into laughter.

The end.

Sorry baby, it's never too late to make it right.

More to an Egg

LIVE JOUNRAL IS A DIFFERENT POST.
IF YOU WANNA READ 2 DIFFERENT POST FROM MINE BUT SAME DAY.

LOG ON TO JESLIN-HOGC.LIVEJOURNAL.COM :D

OH YA , I WENT TO JOG WITH MY PARENTS !

BISHAN PARK , BUT RUN 1KM I'M DEAD !

I WILL CONTINUE TO WORK HARD IN RUNNING ! :D

To be honest , i think i am like a Carrot mixed with Egg flavoured soup.
why? * read on.

Before the Carrot have been boiled , it went in strong , hard and unrelenting.

But after it's boiled it soften and become weak.

Before the Egg have been boiled it was fragile , it's thin outer shell had protected it's liquid interior. But when it was boiled , it became hardened in the inside.

What do you think you're ?

Are you a carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do you wilt , and become soft and lose your strength ?

OR

Are you an Egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat?
Did you have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have you become hardened and stiff?
Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

When thing happens , i just hardened my heart.

After i break down and loses all my strength

I'm so sad ,

I miss my baby Joel Quah Min Liang.

I'll be going to library and meet Lynn later .

Baby , i love you.

Deepest Dedication,

你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太远

不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞历史不断重演
我好累爱到妥协 也法无将故事再重现
你也想退后一点 我躲在我的世界

我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会再仍在徘徊
开始自己的明天

All the words highlighter in red , breaks my heart.
It's all the reality happening in my life,
Everything breaks , when you're changing for the worse.

Went to cut hair at Yishun today .
I know is not much different, i only cut my fringe and trim my hair.

After that , Mum drive me to 111 to meet Kimleng first.

We slack awhile then went over to 132 to find Claudia ! <3

Go down her taiji with a bitch that flirt her boyf.

We wait there for around 1hour 30minute the bitch never come down -.-

Wth , what a dog.

Saw Qiuyun tooooooo (:

Even saw my primary school mate Wenwei.

Then Kimleng and i went to Khatib to meet some other friends.

Around 11.20pm go take train back to Bishan to meet Baby !!! :D

met him for less than 10minutes then bus home.

Something bad happen.

I'm in a real bad mooddd.

IM NOT GOING TO LET SHITS POLLUTE MY HEAD.

I remember the song , stars.

I can't get to sleep without seeing your smile.

I toss around the bed , trying to get to sleep but always fail to.

I might get a lil petty and unreasonable at times,but that's not gonna change my love for you.

I always love you, though each argument cuts me deeper.

When my soul crashes , you're the only mender.

Every cuts get deeper , the love get deeper too.

When you're worried , i'm worried too.

When your relatives are sick , i'll be worrying like the way you do.

You lives in me.

I wrote down in my dairy with a magic pen , it does have a eraser.

But when there's love within the words, no matter how hard you rub against those words.

The eraser will erase nothing away.
The kiss will bind us together.

Even if i were to say a thousand time i love you,it wouldn't be enough.

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着

Afresh

I love Joel.

I deleted my previous post again.
I got myself another blogging spot ,
http://www.jeslin-hogc.livejournal.com/

I might continue to post here (: